Window to her Soul.

Temporary but Necessary.

2011-04-27T23:50:00.000-07:00

Your darkest hour will only last 3,600 seconds, that's 60 minutes.
The pain yu felt was only temporary, it'll come and go.
When you're up, wee hours of the morning pouring your heart out
looking for that person whoever is listening to say something yu already knew
becus you've been here many times before.
You've seen these nights already, felt this temporary pain already.
Yet, yu still go threw the process to get yu right back to this temporary pain.
All is ask is, why?....
Night falls and then eventually the joy's supposed to come in the morning, the right?
Yeah, but love is joy so why would it come in the morning instead of existing, already?
Let these words soak for a min or two.............

Indescribable...

2011-04-27T23:43:00.000-07:00

Mentally, my minds is at a place that I couldn't verbally speak of
becus I've yet to figure out how I would say it
so that the common mind can wrap itself around it.

Sleepness NIghts & Early Mornings

2011-04-27T23:33:00.000-07:00

The only sleep I get, is day dreaming of yu. In the night, my minds going ~~full speed~~, thoughts screaming so loud I can't hear anything surrounding me. I miss the sounding of your heartbeat that I once laid my ear next to. Your body heat set my soul on fire that melted every negative thought away. These thoughts were once on cruise control, now I've lost all control. Now my souls gone cold, north pole. Early mornings I'm up trying to be ~~piece~~ my thoughts back together to be whole. Maybe then I can get some kinda sleep, maybe then this ice-boxed soul can be liquid form, maybe then all my weaknesses will turn into strengths. The lengths I went for yu, the things I put my heart threw for yu, and accepting every baggage that was in your closet only left me with sleepless nights and up early mornings.

Dear Dannell.

2011-04-14T19:17:00.000-07:00

Yes, Im sending yu another letter even though i know it will be returned to sender.......

Yu were the omega of my heart, the foundation of my conception of love.
Never would I have thought I'd be looking for you threw signs from up above.
I wish could've help keep the blood flowing threw your lungs, the slugs hit deeper then we'd thought.
The doctors said for your life they fought, God bless their souls and thee unknown angel that helped at the scene. Why does it only seems 5mins ago I last seen you?
At least we said we loved each other as we departed that day before this tragic.
It still seems unreal to me, but it's been 2years, 12 days, 14hrs && 18mins since you've been gone.
I used to cry every day && every night.
I missed so many days of school becus my eyes were too red, heart to heavy to carry on threw the day.
But now, I can actually go a whole day or too without cry.
Still heavy hearted but I keep going to sleep & waking up.
So I'm getting a lil stronger as these days that seems like years,
hours seem like days, minutes feel like hours && seconds feeling like minutes.
Poppy, I only live to die jus to see yu again.
I know I said this already, but I'm saying it again.
I know I've already wrote yu these letters many time, but I'm writing yu again,
becus today memories aren't enough, again. . .
I wouldn't know were to began if I were to say all the things I miss about yu.
But I know the tears are the water for the garden of my victory.

Dear Angels

2011-04-14T12:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Angels,
As these days pass, all I can think about is how long will these days last.
I only live so I can die jus so I can live in the sky like yu, angels.
Dear Angels,
The battlefield down here again the flesh gets harder everyday.
The enemy is only in the business of destroying, by ALL means necessary.
Dear Angels,
I humbly say thank yu && I only ask with mercy to the Angels, to continue to watch && protect me.
Dear Angels....

10 Minutes.

2011-04-13T19:33:00.001-07:00

10mins begins as i sort of && pin point these emotions,

that seems to be all that's ~~around~~ me.

9mins to let this pin go in the pits of my heart

&& let the ink be the blood that's ~~running~~,

the pain that keeps it pumping, the source of it all.

8mins left to unlock the window to my soul && let yu all be witnesses of a beautiful disaster.

7mins to let your eyes walk on the surroundings of this fragile thing.

6mins left to glue the millions of pieces back together that used to be a ~~wholehearted.~~

5mins to let yu trace this thing that once was a painted picture,

but now has been ~~d e p a r t e d~~.

4mins will tell of all that's been scarred.

3mins was all it took to get these emotions started.

2mins to let this all simmer, for the “beginners”
1min left && im at a lost for words.....

The IPod Playlist

2011-04-13T18:45:00.000-07:00

She did it again just like her album 19, 21 is like a piece of heaven.

This is some good shit, period.

i slept on Frank Ocean && almost didnt wake up!
I fell in love with this mixtape.

JHENE AiKO!!!!!!!!!
The Award for BEST MIXTAPE OF 2011 goes to her, hands down.
This mixtape stays in rotation!

Hello....

2011-04-13T17:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah i been distracted, but i got my mind right.
The pin & paper are best friends again......
welcome these writes with an open mind & open heart, again.

Chasing Pavement ...

2011-01-26T13:56:00.000-08:00

The Love EP - Corinne Bailey Rae

2011-01-25T16:48:00.000-08:00

1. I Wanna Be Your Lover

2. Low Red Moon
3. Is This Love *My Fav*

4. My Love

5. Que Sera Sera (Live)

This mini album is such a tease for the full album,

which is supposed to be release very very soon.

Never the less, she's more than amazing.

Lust Of Her Eyes.

2011-01-23T13:40:00.000-08:00

Eyes never lie, they dilate ..

they stared straight until my heart told my mind to look away.

Your appearance was breath taking, i secretly closed my eyes

to let God know i realize what an amazing creator He is.

Yet the thoughts that went threw my mind meant sin

so i also asked for forgiveness, cus only God knows

everything within me wanted to give you the business. . . .

A Night Out On The Town.

2011-01-23T13:09:00.000-08:00

I Love Yu Guys :-*

Gotta Love DownTown

Clippers Game

Grammy Museum

Nokio Center

Duhhh, FAT BURGERS!

I Wanna...

2011-01-14T16:59:00.001-08:00

I wanna know you, like an forgotten dream that only plays back bits and pieces I yearn to figure you out. I wanna know you, like an present under the christmas tree you leave me wondering what's underneath all that wrapping paper you present yourself to be. I wanna become bestfriends with your mind, so I wont ever misunderstood yu. Your heart, I wanna mode it and reshape it into the way you desire it to be. I wanna put your mind at ease, touch places in your soul that caresses your worries away. I wanna be the one who makes your world be safe, like wonderwoman I wanna be your hero everyday. I wanna take you on a rollercoster of ecstasy, explore your body freely as you let set the atmosphere with all kinds of sounds of love making. I wanna be the reason you'll be horse the next morning. (lmao) I wanna be the reason your walking on cloud 9. I wanna the one your define as your lover, homie, and bestfriend because in the end .... All I wanna do is love you with everything within.

Her && Him.

2011-01-10T17:29:00.001-08:00

She's, valetindatinyg lies to dress up her hurt feelings. Why haven't she learned from these ~~rerun~~ dealings? Wasted energy, false potential, why did she even invest in it? Let him touch the souls of her most deepest feelings, let him explore where no one else have been before. He's young at heart && immature so he's not mentally ready for the place she thinks they ought to be. ~~Intuition~~ tells her that she ought to leave but see when feelings run deep it ain't as easy as ya mind thinks it'll be. Here's where mind over matter applies, cus when trouble in a relationship arise; it's a knock that neither of them wants to answer. Cus who knows what that trouble may bring, possibly a ~~heartbreak~~ scene. ...

Another Again.

2011-01-02T13:42:00.000-08:00

Seems as thought i then did it again, i left my guard down & now im in this same boat floating in a sea of feelings again. I got too attached again, this time even more. So close to yu now my around my heart is sore. I guess that swore to neva catch feelings didnt mean anything again. Now im stuck becus the heart, overrules the mind at any giving time. Yeezy taught me that, it all falls down when yu cross that line. Jus when i got my heart back where it used to be, i still fail short becus i let "yu & me" when i knew it wasn't supposed to be anything more. I like the sweet taste of sin, the sneaking fruit from the forbidding tree again. Here's another lesson again, but am i gonna learn what's before hand or will it be another again?

Fam[ily].

2011-01-01T11:14:00.000-08:00

Yu, Do That for Me.

2010-12-02T15:50:00.000-08:00

Yu give me reason, when i feel there's nothing

in this world i have to look forward to.

Security, like an officer on the job, yu do everything

yu can to provide safety to my soul.

When the world isn't kind, yu're the one who gives me peace of mind.

Yu, do that for me......

The sound of your voice takes me higher place,

like even higher than outta space...

more of an place only God's feet were once placed.

Your touch sends silent messages ~~threw my body~~, that quietly screams

I L O V E Y U .

Your presents is such an amazing site that it makes me wanna capture yu,

jus to be able to look again, again, && again.

Yu, do that for me....

Cat Daddyyyyyyyy :-*

2010-11-30T16:19:00.000-08:00

o_0

2010-11-29T20:19:00.000-08:00

Control your compromises in a relationship.

If yu give some1ne a license to play yu; they'll use it.

Bacon, anyone?

2010-11-29T19:28:00.000-08:00

lol gotta love it!

Tyreesha :-*

2010-11-29T18:50:00.001-08:00

Brent T.

2010-11-29T18:49:00.000-08:00

My Bruh Bruh :)

Food, for Thought.

2010-10-08T00:23:00.001-07:00

Say yu dnt understand me, yet?
Its okay, im jus now understanding me, myself.
Im difficult much, yes ..
but if yu cant handle me at my worse,
how could yu possibly think yu'd get me, at my best?

Flying ..

2010-10-07T17:00:00.001-07:00

Im flying, with out wings now.
Your the one giving me the strength,
to even wanna fly in this love atmosphere.
For i am only a lovebird,
pls dnt shoot me down..

I Fantasize ... about, You.

2010-10-04T12:54:00.001-07:00

I wanna do dumb things...
Im talk'n: strolling-in-the-park things.
Stealing kisses straddled on park swings,
in the daylight while the ice cream van sings
little melody like...
Twa da da dum...Da da da da dum...
Im talk'n some midnight dedications of rare groove tunes, && all across London ..
we're using real names too,
cus we're not fazed by who cool, who's a fool.
See, I want to...
everything with you, so...
I Fantasize about yu,
said everyday && i want to do jus everything.

Now i want to run hold'n hands ..
See, i know that we can do this,
in a field of purple grass,
sprayed with green && white tulips..
under a sky washed orange by an everlastin sunset.
&& yu know what??? i aint done yet.
See, i want to catch a ride,
off some crimson-colored stallion.
We can sail off in a boat made of water,
straight into the horizon.
&& we could catch a lift on a cloud,
That's silver lining's really platinum,
But yu know what? i still ain't done yet.
See, i want to ...
&& i was thinking we could......
&& if yu wouldn't mind a little.....
&& if yu're ready we could always....
Seeeeee - iiiiii - Fannnnntasizeee...
about yu,
everydayyyy && i want to doooo
jus everything...
*-: ♪

This Love Thing.

2010-10-04T12:22:00.000-07:00

The CONNECTION is so strong, it scares && amazes me. The conversation is like a piece of heaven on earth.We're both on our interest peaks, ready go over anyday now. The anger that sparks between us, only makes the hunger of "want" hungrier. The seed of this attention begins to blossom into a steady growing flower. The dehydration of love, is starting to form its flowing river. The season of the he♡rt to be; reshaped, remodeled, && reformed has finally come around. .. am i mentally ready? The thing that keeps me up at night. My feelings && he♡rt, have this constant fight. Give in or stick it out? Take a chance at; hurt, love, adventure, higher levels, heartbreak, hurt feelings, that cloud 9 feeling, or shall i keep this guard up over my heart?

Open Letter, Open He♥rt.

2010-10-03T09:43:00.000-07:00

As i opened my heart, yu only opened your mouth to let
your lies smack my ears every time yu spoke of love'n me.
Mommy said never settle for jus anything -
He better treat my princess as a fully raised queen.
Yet in the mean time, yu only was worried about
get your thang in between another princess thighs.
How naive of me to actually believe your satisfactorily lies.
While my soul lied on your finger tips to touch,
but yu brushed it off like yu would when she would
leave that ~~sticky~~ lip gloss, on your cheeks && neck.
As our relationship docked this sea of love, yu recked.
Lost control of the helm && let the size of breast, ass, and length of hair
determine who yu was love'n.
Yu even tried to apologize with pricey gifts to lift my hurt feelings.
But diamonds to me is like cut glass, roses don't last they eventually die.
Jus like my love for yu ....
This was a 50/50 thing, yu were supposed to stay faithful and true.
If i loved yu were supposed to love ~~too~~ ..
Meet me half way on everything, not be my everything && now we're done
so yu left me with nothing but a ~~broken heart~~ to mend,
trust issues, && a open heart yet to be embraced by a real man.

Song of my Life, right now.

2010-09-02T11:20:00.000-07:00

Will ♥ Jada.

2010-09-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

Now, i've always loved Will & Jada

they're sooo cute :)

Look at Jada, she's gorgeous && them heels is fire!

I need a man like Will in my future !

Mr. Roseman

2010-09-02T10:53:00.000-07:00

We all have that one guy friend we talk to about our relationships, we consider them our brutha from otha to the core right? Right. They tell yu about all their crazy girlfriends, all their guy "problems", alllllll of their issues and ask for the ~~female point of few~~. They tell yu how much their feeling the girl or how they met a girl at a club or function right? Right. Yet he's become a really closer than close to me && he's leave'n for college in Dallas, Texas tomorrow :'( && it jus breaks my heart that he's really actually leave'n. Okay yeah we can webcam, txt, and call each other but it wont be that same as his presence. Im happy for that fact that he's going away for a excellent reason instead of jail. Jus be'n away from this guy will be the hardest part. When yu have yearssss with some1ne and yu've been gr8 friends since day 1ne is absolutely hard to watch them go. I know what kinda soap he washes with, what he wants in a relationship, his fav foods, his dislikes, what to get him from mcdonalds, what kinda cloths to shop for him, how he dances, when he's angry, hurt, or restless, need i go on? (lmao sheeeshh) i dnt even think if i explain'd the love in my heart for him, yall would understand - so i wont. Maybe distance will bring us even closer ....i know he'll read this so i love yu black'e =*

The Familiar Things.

2010-09-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

When yu look at this picture, what comes to mind?

Do yu think they all wanted to do the same kinda pose in gray scale?

Or is it that ironic the photograpghers didnt know this pose was used,

on an different artist as well?

See, sometimes in life its the exact same thing.

Yu meet some1ne && jus so happen they went threw

some of the same things yu went threw.

Or, they grew up the same way yu did

family problems jus like yu, etc.

Point is, whatever yu've been ~~threw~~ in life - some1ne else has been there before.

My mom would always remind that our situation could always be worse,

or that some1ne else situation is far more worse than ours.

It taught me how to be humble and grateful.

I also knew God wouldn't put something on me

&& not pull me threw it.

This post is juus food for thought .......

Takers!

2010-08-31T10:07:00.000-07:00

Takers was a great movie, especially becus i went to see it with a great guy :)

Chris Brown did his thing and T.I was the funniest in the movie

My baby Idris Elba was real sexy as always esp w.that accent!

Michael Ealy w.his fine ass ... whoa!

Ladies, yu wnt be disappointed its a must yu go see it.

Could it Be? ahh ..

2010-08-31T09:45:00.000-07:00

So Gabby wants a none championship winning ball playa? lmao
hmhmmm .. (lmbo) they cute doe!

The Obamas.

2010-08-31T09:37:00.000-07:00

Aren't they lovely? (:

She Had Everything - Shanelle Gabriel

2010-08-25T12:16:00.000-07:00

doesn't this sound familiar ladies?

What a Day.

2010-08-24T21:22:00.001-07:00

Today, i woke up .. prayed & did my morn'n routine. Went to PCC to take care of some school business, it didnt go well none. Caught the train, train left my brother so now im on this redline like damn should i get off && wait for him or get off & see if he's on the next train? should i wait for him to call me .. yeah i'll do that. WRONG! my fucking phone died!!! so here i am, on this damn train all by myself all these perv's are starring at me! so then i lose my fucking fly ass glasses! ]: so im now lost & so are my shades as well as my brother. No money, no change to use a pay phone, hungry af, feet hurt, hot as hell. So i finally find my brother in Compton by Grams, okay so next we get to Grams, start paying spades ... lose every game i play -_- * i h8 lose'n in spades!* still hungry, go to NayNa's, still lose'n in spades man, get'n set & all dat. && why i thought today was wed? lmao. its only tuesday! smh. worst day this month man i swear.

That boy Handsome!

2010-08-23T11:37:00.000-07:00

Ladies - he's a singer, a college student, truly a man of God

Very funny && out go'n, well rasied brotha. lol

p.s - he's my blood brother :)

My Grandmother.

2010-08-20T11:55:00.000-07:00

If yu know me well, yu'd know Gram (my grandmother) is my ........ well there isn't a word that can explain nor express what she is to me. I could jus say she's my everything, but i'd lose her - i'd have nothing. Today, i came across this video, that touched every inch of my soul in the deepest way. It made me cry, becus it's so true to my life.... yall jus dnt understand how this touched me. I swear i wish i could find this guy & thank him... watch it.

Ms.Iman

2010-08-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

<3 her!

Certain Songs, Certain Feelings.

2010-08-18T13:02:00.000-07:00

Yu know, how certain songs makes yu think about a certain some1ne. Or a song makes yu cry jus think'n of them? yu play it over and over again, yu sing harder than the artist sing'n it, yu tap your feet to the temple or snap your fingers ... yu act as if your sing'n it to them, yu may even act like your on stage and the spot light is on yu the rest of the place is dark and they're the only 1ne in the addience and yu jus want them to understand and listen to what this song is say'n becus its exactly how yu feel. Or am i the only person who does this? (lmao) naw i know yall do it too! ahaa. Its in crazy how the song writer knows? Its like they secretly browse threw your emotions, right? right. I jus thought i should write about it since i jus keep listen'n to this Eric Benet, Sometimes I Cry. Its been on repeat since about 9am & its now 1:01pm lol.

Question ..

2010-08-18T12:38:00.000-07:00

A recent study found that 20% of people in relationships are actually in love with some1ne else. The reason for this are not known, but may have to do with finances, desire, children and fear, so they settle. .. What would yu do?

Dimonds, Are Forever.

2010-08-18T10:09:00.000-07:00

Christopher Lee Sauve, he of the controversial fashion tees, has created something new. This time, his plain white tee offers commentary on Naomi Campbell’s involvement with ex-Liberian leader Charles Taylor. For more on Chris, visit Christopherleesauve.com.

Dondria vs Phatfffat.

2010-08-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

So, she finally did it! Im so happy for her, i used to stay up late nights and watch all her youtube videos. Now she finally drop'd her album yesterday, im gonna buy about 3. Not gonna download it lol i support her! I remember how toe'up she used to look in some of her youtube vidoes, lmao now she stay w.her a pop'n ass weave and make'up :) -no shade- lol. Anyway, support our yung black artist tryna make it futher in the industry! Buy the album.

1.) You’re The One

2.) Saving Myself
3.) Shawty Wus Up (ft Johnta Austin and Diamond)

4.) Making Love

5.) Can You Help Me

6.) Where Did We Go Wrong

7.) No More

8.) Still Be With Me

9.) You’re The One (JD’s Jeep Mix)

10.) Believer

11.) Kissed By The Sun

Eric Benet - Sometimes, I Cry.

2010-08-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Quote, Unquote.

2010-08-17T11:20:00.000-07:00

"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go."

Repost Ima Need Rehab.

2010-08-17T11:14:00.000-07:00

Going raw every night not a ~~condom~~ in site, addicted to the feelings so blinded to the consequences before hand, didnt care about that otha woman or young man feelings so deep in to it we became one and reality was numb, it all felt so damn ~~VERITABLE~~ !!! (pausing) Just breathe .. inhale exhale .. repeat. okay GO.
Yes ima need rehab, so caught up we didnt wanna prevaricate the situation, never had such a great connection of affection. Your reflection plays back in my mind right alone with your smell, smile, lips, hands, and the list goes on. Making promises and just going along with that whatever happens kinda thing, we forgot about the ~~strings~~ we had attached but being so attached there wasnt a care for that. This was something special like my heaven on earth, letting each other tocuh the surface of our souls and right in the mist of it all we realize this was a NO DEAL situation.. no more txt's, aim convo's, emails, basically no more communication. Yes ima need REHAB, to fall back from this .. long days and nights will result from the pain of this situation. Im strong minded but the pain of the mind takes over the body it'll all be a test, the process will be a mess .. i just pray that it's the progress feels the best.

Mr. Jenkins

2010-08-16T14:38:00.000-07:00

My boy Jachin Jenkins.
Future pro football palyer.
Future heartbreaker lol.
My lil brother, love yu kiddo :-*

Note, to Self.

2010-08-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

I've immersed myself in ~~worrisome~~ thoughts lately, i need to open my mind's window && allow in a ray of light. At times i may not even realize how dark my interior world can be - becus i've gotten so used to this darkness. I need to do some mental summer clean'n to clearout the cobwebs && ~~sweep~~ out the negative energy. I need to repolish my hopes and dreams until they shine again. I must constatnly remind myself that better times are come'n, to unlock myself out of this a ~~negative~~ mindset - i cant miss my opportunity for happiness.

I’m No, Seat Filler.

2010-08-16T11:33:00.000-07:00

I like the feeling of have’n my own, I’ve always been the type to

be non selfless yet selfish to what’s rightfully mines. I’d share my chips and juice with yu

maybe even split the last piece of pizza with yu. But, when it comes to Love,
that’s jus one thing I dnt share. Call it what yu want, I call it mines.
I can share my heart && feelings, yet to a certain extent. Who wants to share, really?
How can i share love? Its clearly not an option for me. If i come across an empty chair,
im gonna ask is this seat taken? && i expect for yu
to be honest and say either yes or no.

What i look like seat'n in the next woman seat? I dnt fill seats and i dnt take ppl seat.
comprender?

Friday, the 13th.

2010-08-13T14:55:00.000-07:00

BLAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I never believed in this day of bad luck becus there's no such thing as bad luck - what is ment to be will be - ppl take this day and run w.it, i got all kinds off crazy txt messages & chain letters that pissed me off, like really? ugh.... over it!

Black & Gray.

2010-08-12T14:35:00.000-07:00

So, i kinda got this thing for "~~Black~~" and "~~Gray~~" - as yu can see lol. Most of yu know, i can't stand to look at 1ne thing for too long, like a display picture or a design must be changed after 2months lol etc .... so basically things aren't so BRIGHT in my world right now, self explanatory for the black and gray. Often times the weight on my shoulders get almost more heavier than i can bare, be it makes my muscles work, so my bone tissues tend to grow - while im carrying this weight, the process of my muscles be'n work and the soreness really ~~kicks the hell in~~ - its only making me stronger, as a person, stronger character, stronger mantality etc ... so bare w.me here readers lol. I'll soon brighten back up and things will get better, they have no other chioce but to.

The Fine Print.

2010-08-07T13:03:00.000-07:00

Yu see a fine product in the market on the shelft, it catchs your eye - so yu buy it. Now...while this product is in the bag, yu're think'n about it, about what your gonna do w.it, how yu gonna floss & show off w.it, right? Right. Once yu get home, yu start to explore this product, to see what's it really about, yu open it it, "maybe" even read the directions ... But yu didnt read the FINE PRINT. Is it becus we dnt like to really like to observe things before yu pick it off the market? are we in a rush? or we simply dnt care becus the product jus "looks" so damn good to the eyes? Ohhhhh but is that fine print soooo damn very important!!! So to my readers, if yu dnt understand what the fine print means, yet - i'll break it down jus a lil more for yu. When yu pursue somthing, make sure its in the very best interest for yu in the long run. Yeah good looks are candy to the eyes but yu always want some1ne who is beautiful on the inside as they are out. Always take your time & be patient in everything your putting your feelings in. Becus above all else, guard your heart ( Proverbs 4:23 ).

Who are Yu?

2010-07-21T21:31:00.001-07:00

How is it that i know almost nothing of yu, yet i feel such an indescribable feeling in my gutt for yu? Its kill'n me softly, becus this isn't Bee. Im not used to this feeling && idk if i should embrace it or keep away from it. What are the odds of it turn'n out into the unthinkable && what are the odds of it be'n a repeated chapter written over with a different character? My mind stays on yu, which is veryyyyyy annoy'n! (lmaooo) cus i cant figure this "thing" out. I guess only time will tell, until then i'll be patiently wait'n ...

Lovers and Friends.

2010-07-20T19:53:00.000-07:00

We all go threw it, it always sits in the back of your mind quietly - yet its so loud yu cant ignore it. Try different ways to try && destory it, it'll fade then reappear like a carpet stain. ... im talk'n about the feelings yu try to prevent, over look, black out ... i mean yu know exactly what im say'n here. No Usher or Lil John here, but is it really possible that we can be lovers and friends?

Im, Jonesing.

2010-07-19T17:08:00.001-07:00

The Online Slang Dictionary
(American, English, and Urban slang)
Jonesing - Verb.
• to crave something, not necessarily a drug.
Reather my crave'n be yu - my drug, or a simple touch of your put your mind at ease kind of love. Maybe ... im go'n threw a withdraw & i jus need it, which only yu and i can define what it truely is. Im in need of some soul touch'n && emotional soothing. My <3 needs to join the beat of yours, again. Never been ashamed to admit how much yu 've effected me, promised i'd never regret yu, again. I guess my chances are 1ne and a million of us being 1ne, again. Like Drake said, life is a chance & like a picture i wanna take it. .. are yu with me?

Beautiful Breezy.

2010-07-19T12:32:00.000-07:00

Brejett Egland.

Slow Motion Sundays.

2010-07-12T20:57:00.000-07:00

gotta sing w.him lmao.

we was do'n about 95 mph rite here.

lol random right? sooo what. i love my brother doe, hella fun & funny :-*

Cool, Me OFF.

2010-07-11T17:37:00.000-07:00

yesssssss :)

All I Want, is YOU.

2010-07-08T15:25:00.000-07:00

Uhhmm... Weather?

2010-07-06T22:52:00.001-07:00

Im not complain'n NONE about our weather, plus i like wetness (lmao) .. naw but seriously other parts of the country are have'n heat waves & ppl are dying from it .... _{HELLO SUMMER WEATHER!!} while we still have cool weather, dnt complain - appreciate it. ... it could be & its gonna get worser. Enjoy it while yu can, & that's with everything. gdnite :-*

Hello ..

2010-07-06T22:47:00.001-07:00

So, i told myself i would give my blog page some rest for at lease a few weeks ... its been long enuff plus i need to vent!

June/Gloom.

2010-06-09T23:12:00.000-07:00

i never get tired of myself. ahah :D

Follow Your, Destiny.

2010-06-09T22:55:00.000-07:00

Shoot with Ms.Destiny T. Smith, enjoy.
This was hella fun :-*<

Gorgeous Mishalay.

2010-06-07T21:24:00.000-07:00

Photo shoot with Mishalay Powdrill,
it was wonderful - enjoy.

Lisa, Hellooo

2010-05-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

Lil shoot ... she's beautiful isnt she :)

BritvsBeeB.

2010-05-15T00:43:00.001-07:00

small shoot i did of myself, enjoy :D

Lately ...

2010-05-14T14:17:00.000-07:00

I've had so muchhhhhhh to say, yet... when im get'n ready to do a post - my mind scrambles & nothing comes together long enuff to type it... guess it gets that way somtimes. Bare with me my readers, lol my mind shall come back to normal eventually, right? RIGHT. (i hope so lol) ..

Weekend Work.

2010-05-12T10:40:00.000-07:00

Photo Shoot With Breezy,
For Her Birthday Weekend. :)

L.A !

2010-05-07T10:33:00.000-07:00

Im from L.A trick!! lmao :D ahahaha.

Britteny said it ...

2010-05-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

To allow correction in our lives is the pathway to wisdom - learn how to take criticism good or bad, we still can learn from it.
- Britteny Egland :)

This Fragile Life.

2010-05-05T11:43:00.000-07:00

Every minute that goes by, yu can never get that 60 seconds back. Every day that passes by, yu can never get that 24hrs back. && somtimes we dnt _really understand the word never. .. like its jus somthing that cant ever be. Days come & go, they become memories..they become the past. I've been to so many funerals & im only 18yrs old. So many of my friends have passed away, their moms, their dad, their grannys, my gr8 uncles, my gr8 aunts, cousins, pastors, & the list goes on... but the day of my brother funeral - never became the realest & most hurtful thing ever to hit me in this life. I had take'n 17 yrs of our time spent for grant'd, honesty. I say that becus i thought we would grow old together, i thought that he would be at my wedding, my graduation from college.. let alone my graduation from highschool & prom.. but boy was i in for a rude awaking'n. As we got his obituary together, the pictures, the poems... i went to pick his outfit out. I swear it jus felt like i he gave me money to go get him somthing to wear... everything match'd from head to shoe, boxers & tank top as well. We ironed his boxers jus like he would & spray'd his fav perfums on his outfit Daisy, yes he liked girl perfum when we went out lmao. It all seem'd like a dream... now my granny is very sick & its worry'n me somthing heavy. So my lesson in this post is, pls dnt waste time. Life is sooooooo precious. Love your family, love your parents, love your brothers & sisters. Life is too short to be angry at ppl, to dislike ppl, to argue, to disagree, ect... here today & gone tomorrow is too real. Start love'n & be loved. .. tomorrow is not promised, only thing that is death.

Communication.

2010-05-04T13:53:00.000-07:00

Communication - com·mu·ni·ca·tion
• noun
1. the activity of communicating;
2. the activity of conveying information;
3. the imparting or interchange of thoughts, opinions, or information by speech, writing, or signs.

In any thing yu do - reather it be a group leader, yu have to be able to communicate to your group; connection. If your give'n a presentation in front of your class, yu must have eye contact; attention. When your walk'n in the street when there's no cross walk, in order for the car driver to know yu wanna cross the street yu have to use your body; body language. Communication can be form'd in so many different ways. Im jus gonna speak on it for relationship wise. Simply becus i witness too many relationships fall apart from ^noncommunication. So many things are left unsaid, why? » fear. In fear of hurt'n thier feelings, in fear of what their gonna say, in fear of how they'll react, in fear of how things will turn out. Well yu cant be afraid to take chances. Every feeling yu have, everything yu wanna say - yu cant be scared to express it to them. It will make your relationship stronger, try it. If yu and your mate a communication that is strong, it'll make your connection even stronger. Why hide what yu feel? 9xs outta 10 your mate knows when somthing is wrong or is bothering yu & 9xs outta 10 they want yu to tell them other than try'n to figure it out on their own. Express yourself ppl, it works. Communicate, it makes things easier. Hope some1ne learned somthing from this...— Brit. _♥ Bee.B :-*

Boxed Out.

2010-05-03T14:53:00.000-07:00

Here she is, fight'n to get the reboud from him be'n hurt yet his pride, his stuborness has her box'd out the paint. She's try'n her best to get in & catch the rebound, but this body of pride is so strong she cant seem to break it down to get what's hers. Yet, her friends - the refs - are blow'n their whistles for a foul. She ignores the call & continue play'n ... she's never really listen'd to her coach, hard head'd. Always go'n after the ball instead of watch'n it. She forgets the drills experience teaches her in practice & in condition'n. She wants this reboud so much ... but doesnt understand why the defense is play'n so hard that she's so box'd out she's actually grow'n tired of play'n this game & ready for forfit.

Over Eating.

2010-05-02T18:53:00.000-07:00

Don't over-love the life right out of your love life.

I guess yu can call us love addicts obese.
It seems we cant eat enuff,
its so good we dnt get a full feelings
so we remain hungry for it.
Thirst for it like a sinner does the blood of the Christ, its like its our way of deal'n with life.

It seems the eats that we get from loves plate
is a meal we always want served at dinner.
Yet this plate of food seems badd for us
like liqour is to the liver.
If its that badd why must be eat this meal?
Does it really taste that good?

I honestly think its the chief.
Afterall, they are the ones who feeds us.. right?
Yes.
They feed us the happiness, the lies, the betrail,
the joy, the pain, the frustration, the heartache ..
jus about ever emotion we feel - they cook'd it.

When will they create a diet for us?
Is there such a diet? calorie watch plan? anything?

Dannell Jr.

2010-05-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

him right ttttthhhhere?
Oh that's the love of my life, Poppy Jr.
I been pray'n his mommy give him to me lol, but not gonna happen.
I love this boy somthing crucial, i swear.
He's so pretty, handsome & full of life,
I have no other choice but to ♡ him like my own.
I'll tell his everything about his father,
i'll be the man his dad cant be becus he isn't here.
I'll take him to church & sunday school,
jus like his dad did.
I'll teach him to be a yung man,
before he yarns to be grown.
I'll teach him to love women,
harm them none, respect them & treat them
as a king would his queen.
Yes, i will lay hands on him when he gets outta line,
but only becus i love him,
& i rather me then the police.
The streets will not produce off of him,
gangs will not use him as a source of their victims,
drugs wont be apart of his life neither will acholo - until he's legal.
I will teach him that God, comes 1st in everything he does,
education 2nd,
& females last.
I'll teach him life is short & to use him time wisely ....

Let'n Go.

2010-04-29T01:17:00.000-07:00

Our connection ran so deep, that if i didnt talk to yu at night; i couldn't sleep. Crazy cus til this day yu make me ~~weak~~... i want back the power yu have over me. But these feelings, i can not control. If i put them on a leash im sure they'll jus break free & hide in the conerns of reality where my eyes dont wanna see. This all start'd from a hello, then lead to exchange'n contacts, then exchange'n feelings, yu know.... then came the fall. And, idk why im still down here...nothing makes sense at all. Who's to blame? Yu or Me? ... Us? Apart of me still wants what it is that we had, yet its stilll undefinable, unreal, && unheathy. It lays heavy on my heart like the pressure on a mothers mind worried about her childern. I guess we never stop'd to think about our feelings during all the empty words that we be'n put forth ... for a second i thought we could save this thing like Kobe in the fourth guess not.
We grow from pain, we grow from jus about anyting that doesn't kill us, this will not be the death of me yet it is somthing that will shape me and mode me into somthing even better for an even better person. I thank yu in the long run, for i have no other choice but to let go & move on - if i dnt who will for do it for me? ..... exactly. lol (:

Rideeeeee.

2010-04-20T14:12:00.000-07:00

Wow .....

2010-04-16T08:58:00.000-07:00

wow .... speechless? yall betta singggggg .. omg.

Kush x Orange Juice.

2010-04-13T19:50:00.000-07:00

Wiz Khalifa Kush x Orange Juice mixtapes drops tomorrrrooowww.
Be sure to download it.
'Deal or No Deal' was fire,
so im sure this should be everything its crack'd up to be.

Prayer.

2010-04-13T15:10:00.000-07:00

Father, yu know my ♥ & the guilt i have brought on myself. I confessmy fantasies to Yu right now and Yu to cleanse me from this unrightousness accord'n to Your word. I release every1ne involed in my fantasy world to be the ppl yu made them to be. Give me new eyes, i pray - to see them as Yu see them; as they really are.... i ask all these bless'n in the name of your son Jesus, amen.

Testing The Waters.

2010-04-12T14:23:00.000-07:00

Whom might i swim with today? All the seas have different things to offer; differnt routes to swim, different sites to see, different feelings, different meanings, jus about everything is different about these seas. With all the fish in the sea, how am i supposed to pick jus 1ne? This feeling is bittersweet - but keep that between yu & me. Be'n able to be free & roam different seas are gr8 journeys, yet when night falls & the water becomes cold - we all want that 1ne fish we call our own. I wonder if im wrong to keep these feelings alone & continue to jus roam .. free. Free of headaches, heartache, gut feel'n intuition of that fish cheat'n .. ect. I guess this is where take'n chances might fall in place huh? Blah to hell with that, im zoned out high of myself in outter spaceeeee. ahaaha. :-*

Downtown Los Angeles.

2010-04-11T13:12:00.000-07:00

Photo shoot i did in downtown this week, my model Breezy (my older sister) find her via facebook.

this was soooo much fun! :)

Me vs Gravity.

2010-04-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Im wonder'n .. do i realllyyyyy wanna fight this lose'n battle? These gloves are uncomfortable & the bandage around my hands are wrap'd tooo tight.
As i step into this ring, the bell rings .. i breathe deeply - i've been here before. I've fought this fight before. I've defeat'd Gravity before - no hesitation.
So why am i fight'n this fight again? It seems that gravity have found the strength & put its powers in his body. .. well lets rumble.
He throws the 1st punch - the flatter'n punch that is. I dodge it - been there, done that. 2nd he jabs - dinner & movies. Im too swift on my toes - i felt nothing. 3rd punchs are to my lowers body - meet'n his mom. I kinda felt that - thought about it. Right punch to the side - phone calls & late nite txt'n. I knock'd that punch down - i laugh'd; gotta come harder than that baby. *2 minute warn'n* He looks somewhat tired, im still dodge'n & weave'n look'n pretty.
Im ready for my next round, my trainer Ms.Expericence has been a gr8 trainer .. lets see how far i get with this fight doe. .. Gravity wants me to fall - yet i kinda feel the same. All girls fight this same fight & lose. I've won tooo many times, maybe its okay to be fall. Maybe its the fear of scrape'n up my knees & be'n left with the scars. Or maybe its that he just really aint worth the fall. Only these 12 rounds will tell ..
Until the next broadcast - later fights! :-*

Why Did I Get Married 2.

2010-04-09T23:38:00.000-07:00

If yu loved the 1st one, yu'll be in love with this 1ne. This is a must seeee movie, off top! Like the emotions yu get from this movie is incrediable, literally. I criedddd so much in the theater, lol & i went with my sister we all cried. Yu know anything with Tyler Perry - yu'll go'n to learn somthing. There's alot of lessons in this movie. I might go see it again lol .. this movie is the bomb.. if yu havent seen it - pls GO!

"When I Say I Am A Christian"

2010-04-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

When i say i am a christian
I'm not shouting im clean living im whispering i was lost, now im found && forgiven.
When i say i am a christian
i dont speak of this with pride, im confessing that i stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When i say i am a christian
I'm not trying to be strong, im professing that im weak && need His strength to carry on.
When i say i am a christian
I'm not bragging of success, im admitting i have failed && need God to clean my mess.
When i say i am a christian
I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible but - God believes i am worth it.
When i say i am a christian
I still feel the sting of pain, i have my share of heartaches so I call upon His name.
When i say i am a christian
I'm not holier than thou, im just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

Hot Tub Time Machine.

2010-04-07T14:49:00.000-07:00

Soooo, yeah this move was funny as sh*t && very touch'n .. at the end i thought about all my close friends .. makes yu realize how gr8 friends are & what it means to be friends. Really gr8 movie, both thumbs upppp! :)

My fav Couple!

2010-04-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

None other than, Obama & his otherhalf. With every strong man, there's a strong woman behind him.

Christian Louboutin.

2010-04-06T13:20:00.000-07:00

The gorgeous Christian Louboutin shoes worn by the models for Marchesa's equally stunning Spring 2010 collection.

#MusicMonday.

2010-04-05T11:36:00.002-07:00

Will.I.Am & Usher? yu already know the beats gonne be fire & it'll be a club banger & in heavy rotation off top. Yu have to admit, Will knows how to produce. Will always has this astonish'n beat. The whole interlard between the chorus & bridge is craaaaaazzyyyy, i love it. The break down!?!?!! OMG! ahaahhaa - its completly f.i.r.e. The song is DOPE periodddd. If yu haven't heard it - listen to it here.

Resurrection Sunday.

2010-04-04T13:27:00.000-07:00

"There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow. The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men. The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay."
- Matthew 28:2-6.
I asked Jesus "How much do you love me"..."This much He answered",then He opened His arms and died. Have any of your friends or anybody died for yu besides Jesus? No. .. I can never thank Jesus enuff for die'n for me. There's no way possible i'll ever be able to express such graditude. Only way is to give my creater back my life in which was him to began with & be a vessle.

Dont Ignore Your Intuitions.

2010-04-03T16:30:00.000-07:00

"Intuition • Noun.
The act or faculty of knowing
or sensing without the use
of rational processes." - Webster Dictionary.
Okay, lemme serve yu rawness for your health. Yu know that GUT feel'n yu feel just outta nowhere? That voice yu hear outta nowhere .. things jus start come'n together like ... DAMN. So this how such & such .. whoop'dee whoop whoop whoop .. (lmao) happen - Yeah that's your intuition. What's for yu to know, yu'll know. God show yu signs & it aint for yu to ignore them. Always follow your 1st mind, its not jus a thought - its really real. So when somthing tells yu, your mate is cheat'n, sneek'n, or creep'n - 9xs outta 10 your intuition wont fail yu. So dont fail it by ignore'n it. As much as yu try to or may want to, cus your in love or love that person - it'll be better for yu in the long run. Besides, if that mate loves yu - yu wouldn't feel that gut feel'n. So there it is there .. take this or leave it right here - doesn't matter, yu'll still think about it. ;)

Kanye & Cudi for Bathing Ape 2010.

2010-04-03T14:07:00.000-07:00

The long and familiar relationship of Kanye and BAPE continues with their upcoming 2010 release which focuses on a distinct style of the brand. With a combination of Bape and URSUS Bape, the brand introduces a new style including belts as wells shirts, work trousers, tees, varsity jackets and even colorful hoodies which they are known for. To view the full collection hit the jump, via Hypebeast.
Cudi recently had a interview with BAPE as well as photo shoot shot by Guy Aroch for the brand for their new catalog for the 2010 summer season.

Silence Gives Consent.

2010-04-02T12:34:00.001-07:00

At times, when your very quiet .. what other choice do i have but to assume - what your think'n, how yu feel, where your mind is .. yu know the silent treatment we tend to give others when we want them to let their minds wonder. We all do it, do we not? We do. What the reason? I kinda get'n the feel'n that your enjoy'n let'n my mind ponder over yu. Its become'n sorta a cycle, agree to disagree, im madd at yu; your madd at me, yu ask why he call; i ask who is she .. yu know that thing. Ever wonder why we give them the power to access our emotions when we know what they're gonna do? Yeah .... i still haven't figured it out. I guess its 1ne of those things life throws at yu, either yu catch it or yu dont; doesn't matter its still thrown. Maybe the problem is, i gave yu the boyfriend treatment we yu jus my friend. ... Yeah, there it is. So, lesson learned i must grow from this silence becus it is the loudest noise & i cant ignore it any futher.

Poppy Day.

2010-04-01T01:32:00.000-07:00

Hey Uncle, its your 1ne year anni... wow. im at a lost of words... how do i swallow this big ass pill? how do i swallow a whole year with out yu here? do i react to my inner feelings & end up do'n life or do i take this as a gift becus yu dy'n taught me how to live & i think that's the best gift that yu could've ever give. It all seem'd like 5mins ago when i hit the floor .. scream'n no not poppy.. damn we left the hospital so sloppy. Its all so fresh in mind. I still smell your scent around me so i know your near. Crazy thing is i barely remember the funeral, all i know is that i was only able to see yu for about 5 secs if that long before i lost my mind & my world went blank. They said i sank str8 to the floor .. idk i cant remember i guess it's to painful to hold a spot in my memory. All i have left is sweet memories .. dnt tell my mom but i drunk some Remy in honor of yu :) it was nasty but it was jus for yu. Know'n yu, yu'll prolly tell her lol. But did yu see all the support we got at the cemetary today? Yu seen all the purple roses they gave yu? GaGa had a sprite for yu, BugBug had put some seeds for yu to chew on, i hoped yu enjoy'd em. We went to visit Granddaddy & Uncle Red too.. tell them i said hello kiss granddaddy for me too! :) & ask him does he approve of me date'n yet? ha. =D .. Dee had a lil kickback for yu, every1ne came it was turnt up too, the food was good as well. lol i had it go'n off top doe. I wish yu was here so i can teach yu how to dougie i know yu would've liked that dance oh & we all did the Poppy leg for yu!! lol Gram too. Anyway, i hope yu enjoy'd your 1st anniversary as much as we did.. eventhough i celebrate every 1st of each month lol. I love yu Darnell, can yu save me a spot right next to yu & Grandaddy pls? :) thanks cuhhh. I miss yu ..

Music = Them.

2010-03-31T18:43:00.001-07:00

I love The Beatles & Marvin Gaye .. especially Marvin. I was very yung when i 1st heard their music but as soon as i did, i loved it. I came across these pictures today & took a picture of them. ENJOY!

I Wish..

2010-03-30T13:32:00.000-07:00

i wish i could fly i wish no1ne would have to cry i wish my uncle wouldn't have died i wish love would give me a try i wish i could see more things threw these eyes of mines i wish i could be humble at all time i wish all men wouldn't lie .. as much as they do i wish i was still run'n with my old crew i wish some ppls eyes dont stick to me like glue whenever i walk threw i wish i was more like God so i could at lease have a clue of love in which he spoke so proudly of i wish i could spend 1ne night above with Him only to come back as have as good as He i wish better days for yu && me i wish all these things could be i wish i could love yu as deep as any of the seas i wish i could always be sweet like the honey the bee's collect i wish bill collects would stop call'n my house phone i wish i had a ice cream right now i wish i had a million bucks right now i wish i could stop the struggle of the poor some how i wish yu all bow in the presence of gr8ness i wish i could all this h8 & i wish i could bring the world to peace i wish ppl could suck the blood outta ignorance like a leach i wish Kayne drop'd another album i wish happiness was always the outcome of things i wish i could understand most thing i wish i could have more faith in Yu i wish my fathers world wasn't so blue i wish my wishes would've come true from all the candies on birthdays i blew i wish Yu only knew how my feelings felt for Yu i wish She was somtimes Me i wish i didnt wish that i wish i could run as fast at accusations do then maybe i could catch up to my thoughts i wish i couldnt brought another Corinne Bailey Rae - The Sea c.d jus to put it in frame i wish hoods wasn't things we claim'd i wish blacks wasn't always the blame i wish success didnt bring pain i wish we all gain from our mistakes i wish every1ne wasn't so worried about weight i wish my fav number was 8 i wish all half these wishes could come true but i know a wish is as truthful as a wish .. get it?

Raymond vs Raymond.

2010-03-30T11:12:00.000-07:00

1. Monstar
2. Hey Daddy (Daddys Home)
3. There Goes My Baby
4. Lil Freak (Ft. Nicki Minaj)
5. She Dont Know (Ft. Ludacris)
6. OMG (Ft. Will.I.Am)
7. Mars Vs Venus
8. Pro Lover
9. Foolin Around
10. Papers
11. So Many Girls
12. Guilty (Ft. T.I.)
13. Okay
14. Making Love (Into The Night)
After "Here I Stand" album sold poorly, i hope Usher makes a banger! Keep in mind he go'n/went threw a divorce .... not easy right? Right. Anyway go get it!! Its in stores today..like right now right now lol.

#MusicMonday

2010-03-29T13:18:00.001-07:00

Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi, better know as Kid Cudi. Start'd in 06, he first gain'd major attention after his mixtape "A Kid Named Cudi" .. "Heaven at nite", "The Prayer", && "Save My Soul" were my fav songs from it. He came with some more classic sh*t in 09 doe. His single "Day n' Nite" was coo, not a favorite of mines but i liked it. The album "Man on the Moon: The End of Day" Cudi did his thang no doubt. "Make Her Say" & "Pursuit Of Happiness" was always on repeat. What makes me like him even more is that he aint got a high school dipolma he get a GED! yes his GED. Now aint that a shock in a way? He work'n with niggas like Kayne with a GED, yu know his music is the sh*t!! Cus it aint about all that degree stuff, if yu got yu got it, period. Kid Cudi want'd it & he grind hard enuff & did it. He even study'd film. He sung on Kayne "Welcome to Heartbreak" && help'd with songwriting on "Heartless" && "Paranoid" he also featured on the Jay's album The Blueprint 3 "Already Home". So if yu been sleep'n on the Kid, WAKE THE HELL UP!!.

Dear Trey Songz.

2010-03-28T12:47:00.000-07:00

Yu had me, the 1st time i heard "Gotta Make It" .. "all i got is a dollar and a dream is ya gonna roll with me?" went in my ears & touch'd my soul & from 05 until now i ♥ yuuuu. I felt yu in so much in "Hatin' Love" those days i was experience'n yung love. Yu had me sing'n "We should be" as if i knew yu were sing'n it to me. Them came your Ready album, OMG from "Panty Dropa" to "Scratchin' Me Up" - i jus knew yu got yo grown man ON! What a damn album baby. That's a forsure babymaker. hahaa.. whoaaa i was like dammnnn ! Yu became a sex symbol over night.(in my mind) .. lol anyway i ♡ yu, Tremaine Aldon Neverson. :-*

RACISM is VERY ALIVE!!!

2010-03-25T17:12:00.001-07:00

Okayyyy so lemme tell yu, the other day me & my sister went to a donut shop right .. so when we walked i didnt see no 1ne at the register or nothing so i figured they was in the back so i ring'd the lil bell at the counter like ding ding ding ding !! lol literally that many times .. so a lil short chines lady walk'd out with her face all turn'd up .. i ignored how she was look'n at me & ordered a crum donut (the best!!) so she had a attitude or w.e so she got the donut put it in a lil bagy thingy & threw it on the counter to so i gave her the money for it & she did the same thing to my change so i ignored her again .. so i went to sit down & eat my donut and start'd talk'n with my sister laugh'n off what had happend at the register .. so im half way down eat'n my donut & the lady comes from the back and tell us we have to leave jus like REAL loud & she was madd as hell like jus furious with it too like yall gotta go yall cant sit in here so im like girl when im done i'll leave wth so she was like soooo wat!! so wat! yu go black girl! yu go now!!! like hit'n the counter & scream'n lmao so now my sister start'd curse'n her out so they start'd kinda argue'n so she finally went back in the back so im like lemme hurry up & eat this lil raggedy ass donut before she come back shoot'n lmao .. but the point of all this is that she was racist! Its 2010 & ppl are still very racist. I jus couldnt believe what jus happend, like here i am support'n your lil buisness & yu treat me like that & call me black girl! At 1st i laugh'd cus it shocked me but now that i think about it; it pisses me off. .. yu've jus gotta be sick to be that racist. Why even serve me if yu didnt want me in your donut'shop? .. smh crazy lil lady man.